It's Not Fair

It's Not Fair 46

By Cassie and several contributors
puericil@hotmail.com

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This story is intended for ADULTS ONLY. It contains explicit depictions of sexual activity involving minors. If you are not of a legal age in your locality to view such material or if such material does not appeal to you, do not read further, and do not save this story.

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This story is set in the Puericil Universe.

See chapter 1 for an explanation about this series. This is another selection of letters from the "It’s Not Fair!" letter column, in "Boy Stuff" magazine. In them, boys complain about how little privacy they are allowed, and about the double standard that makes it OK for people to see them naked but protects girls’ modesty. The magazine response is signed as INF, but it's actually written by Dr. Cassandra Miller, a feminist psychologist specializing in the upbringing of boys. The intention of this article is illustrating the attitude changes that the Conservative Resurgence has brought about: children, particularly male children, are firmly controlled by adult authority figures, who often make a point of emphasizing that control, in order to keep boys in their place and out of trouble.

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This special installment contains a letter from Steve, a boy who starred in a long running saga within this series. It's not a letter printed in the magazine, since years has passed and he is now all grown-up, but it's an opportunity to catch up with him and celebrate that little saga. You can read his previous letters in chapters number 6, 8, 9, 11 (this one is a letter from Ellen, Steve's babysitter), 13 (this one includes two letters from Steve), 18, 19, 20 (also two letters from Steve), 24, 27 and 30.

Steve's letter:
(the letter has been written by Steve. The response is by Cassie)

Steve (age 24)

Dear It's Not Fair:

Steve here. I was recently home for a family visit and happened to start perusing the Boy Stuff magazine collection that seems to still be in my room in my parents' home. After my last printed letter, there didn’t seem to be any point in writing again, because nothing changed for a couple of years, until I finally finished the A Level school at the age of 20, and then many things changed.

When I finished high school, my parents stopped Puericil and signed for me to be considered to have reached the age of majority. I took driving lessons and got my license, and my parents were so proud of me that they even bought me a used car. Needless to say, my babysitting from Ellen also ended, and the paddle and cane were removed from the living room wall and were retired. I was recruited for and entered the Air Force in a special program that permitted me to attend college as a recruit. I have a full ride from the Air Force in the engineering school of our best state university, studying aeronautical engineering. I was able to complete my bachelor's degree in only 3 years attending year round, I am just about to enter a 2 year Ph.D. program, and upon receiving my Ph.D., I will be assigned as an officer in a special joint program between the Air Force and the new Space Force. It is all very exciting and satisfying. Although I cannot disclose all of the details, I assure you I will be making a significant contribution to my country.

You will be just as interested to hear what is happening with Ellen, and her relationship with you had a lot to do with it. Ellen and a couple of her sisters, Nancy and Sharon, were home the same time I was, and I brought out the magazines and talked about our correspondence with Ellen, which brought a big smile to her face. After all these years, there is no reason not to discuss these matters with Ellen, as she knew me very completely and intimately during her years babysitting me, as you well know, and nothing will ever change that fact. I can spend the rest of my life being totally embarrassed, humiliated and not able to look her in the eye, or just get on with it. I chose the latter path. Ellen graduated with me, and she entered college at the same time, although of course she was only 18. What do you think she is studying? Psychology, with an emphasis on boy behavior. Sound familiar? She will finish her bachelor's degree next year and then will enter a graduate level program as well. You obviously made a big impression on her. I know some of your correspondence and contact with Ellen, but I am sure there is much more that I do not know about. She certainly looked to you as a mentor.

Here is one humorous interlude on which I would really like to get your feedback. You will remember that on more than one occasion when I was writing to you, I wrote that I hoped I was not writing to you too much. In one of your replies, you wrote "If you keep asking whether you write too much we may have to talk to Ellen and ask her to punish you! And you know you wouldn't like that, because she always turns you into a bawling, bare-tushied little boy. ;-)" In my next letter, I wrote "After your joking threat in your last letter to me, I will not ask you if you are tired of hearing from me." You replied "I'm pleased you remembered not to ask if I'm tired of your letters. I'm not, and I really will ask Ellen to spank you if you do! (Not hard, though.)" Ellen and I discussed this dialogue, with some chuckles, and she told me that she had reached out to you after she saw it. She told me the same thing that she said she had told you at the time. Ellen said she had informed you that there was no such thing as a play or pretend spanking with her. Spankings were serious business, and if you, her mentor, had asked her to spank me, it would have been just as hard, vicious and painful as any other spanking she ever gave me, because Dr. Cassie would not have asked her to spank me if she didn’t feel that I deserved it. So I am curious to ask you. If you had asked her to spank me, and if I had suffered the pain and tears that came from that spanking, would you have felt bad or guilty at all that you were the cause of that pain and those tears? Just wondering.

In any event, I thought you would be interested in hearing what is going on in my life. Even though you always supported Ellen and her treatment of me, you really were a vehicle for me to express my frustrations, and I hope all is going well with you as well. Best wishes, and continued success, as I no longer have to tell you It's Not Fair.

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(This is the response from Dr. Cassandra Miller)

Dear Steve,

I was very glad to get this letter from you, and to have this opportunity to catch up with you. How fast time passes! It seems only yesterday that you were writing as a kid, complaining about how strict your babysitter was and trying to get me to agree that you should be treated as a grownup. Now you are writing as a young man, and I feel very happy and proud to hear of your accomplishments. You have lived up to all the expectations of your family, your babysitters and all the people who care about you.

I hope you now realize what I saw very clearly back then: that having Ellen as your babysitter is the best thing that could have happened to you. Everything you are accomplishing is a result of your talent and hard work, but also of the guidance, example and discipline that Ellen gave you.

You’ll recall that you were very focused on the fact that Ellen had so much authority over you, even though she was three years younger than you. I remember how you complained that you, a 15-year-old boy, had a 12-year-old girl as your babysitter, that she bathed you and ordered you around, that she paddled your bare tushie whenever you misbehaved. But in all your accounts in was plain to see that, notwithstanding your age, you were still a child, while Ellen was a very mature young lady. It did not surprise me, then, that she would be in charge of you, that she would control and discipline you. Just like it’s natural for adults to take care of a child, to set rules for him and discipline him when needed, so it was natural for Ellen to have full authority over you, three years younger or not. You know that it takes longer for boys to mature, and Ellen and you were perfect examples of that.

I’m pleased that you can now talk about these things without getting so embarrassed. I think it goes to show your newfound maturity, a maturity that you did not have back then. You used to be all indignant and embarrassed, remember? But, for an outside observer, it did not seem wrong or unfair that Ellen and her friends would see you naked, or that she would paddle your tushie. It just seemed natural. You needed close supervision, and left to your own devices you would not have done your best at school, and you might have got in serious trouble. You were a teenager, but your growth in terms of maturity was slower.

Regarding what I told you in one letter to encourage you to feel comfortable about writing, I was just teasing you. I’m not surprised by what Ellen said, indicating that her spankings were serious business and that if I had asked her to punish you, she would have made your tushie really sore, like she always did when she had to punish you. It goes to show how seriously she took her duties. From the beginning, I was impressed by how maturely she handled the responsibility of looking after and, when necessary, disciplining an older boy. You might recall how once her friends asked her jokingly to spank your tushie, but she refused, saying that she would only spank you when you misbehaved. She was very strict with you, which did you a lot of good, but she was also fair.

I think she was worthy of a lot of respect. I was not surprised that your parents were happy to give her full authority over you. It was very clearly the right thing to do. She did not hesitate to put you in your place when you needed it, and she guided you and made sure you did well at school. Now you are enjoying the fruits of that. You have fairly earned the right to be proud about yourself. I hope you are also grateful towards her.

To come back to your question, no, I wouldn’t have asked her to punish you. You were only trying to be polite, after all, and I just wanted to tease you a little and reassure you that your letters were very welcome. However, if you had said something that merited punishment, you can be sure that I would have asked Ellen to give you a good paddling on your bare tushie. If that had happened, I would not have felt guilty at all. Not because I wanted you to be crying and nursing a sore tushie, but because I knew it would have been good for you. In order to help you get rid of your timidity when writing, I saw no problem in gently teasing you about a spanking. I’m not surprised that Ellen took it too seriously to do that, though. She clearly felt the responsibility of her role and always made sure to live up to it. In any case, I would not have asked her to spank you unless you had deserved it.

Right now, I’m looking at the pictures Anne Marie, Ellen’s older sister, sent me. You know, the ones from the Scott family reunion. You were very cute in them, simply adorable, and it was clear you were still very childish. That’s why I used to tell you not to be embarrassed about the nudity. You were not mature enough to need privacy back then.

A big hug to you, Steve, and make sure you keep doing so well. I’m proud of you. Please, give Ellen a hug from me and tell her I’m proud of her too. I’m glad she is studying psychology. I know she has the temperament and talent for it.

Affectionately,
Cassandra Miller

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