And So It Began: The First Few Months of My Therapy
By Running Bare
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nudity,
spanking, and sexual activity of preteen and young teen children for
the
purpose of punishment. None of the behaviors in this story should be
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I
distinctly remember it was raining and I was sitting on the couch
watching
television. My little sister and two brothers were sitting on the floor
watching the same. Wearing nothing more than a pair of flimsy pajama
bottom
pants, I was somewhat embarrassed. The thought of someone from outside
the
family coming in and seeing me with this lack of clothing made me a
little
self-conscious. After all, it had taken me months to get used to being
so
scantily clad in front of family members especially my sister Karen.
Somehow
I was endowed with some physical
features that others really found attractive. Not the least of these
was my
legs. I don’t know why, but many female observers (mostly friends of my
Mom’s)
often commented on how smooth and “shapely” my legs were. It bothered
me to the
extent I’d often complain especially about the “shapely” part. Mom
insisted it
was a compliment to the muscular shape of them. I could only think it
was a
comparison to the panty hose commercials on TV. Men, I mean boys,
weren’t
supposed to have “shapely” legs. At any rate, because of these
“compliments”, I
didn’t wear shorts even in the height of summer. I refused to leave
myself open
to these off hand comments.
Mom
would often try to diplomatically get me
into short pants telling me how much more comfortable I would be. For
the most
part, the diplomacy didn’t work and I would stay clad in jeans and long
pants
year long. At age ten, that was about to change.
I
was referred to some other doctor by Dr.
Miller, our family doctor. I now know this was at the request of my
parents. Anyway,
the new one, Dr. Cheryl as she wanted to be called, didn’t have a white
coat.
She wore street clothes, which to some extent alleviated a lot of my
fear. Much
to my relief, there weren’t any examination tables in her office. She
didn’t
ask me to strip. And, unlike my visit to Dr. Miller, my mother or
father didn’t
come into the room with me. This young blond physician would just talk
about my
preoccupation with defending my body against those who might see it.
“Do you
feel your body is less attractive than other little boys?” My response
was a
simple “No.”
And
so it went. She challenged me to wear shorts
to the sessions. I was hesitant, but my mother and father insisted I do
what
she wanted. My mother cut off some of my jeans that were beginning to
show
signs of wear and made me wear them to appointments with Dr. Cheryl. At
first
they were cut to a length just above the top of my knee. As time went
on, they
got shorter. I became aware of the receding hem line when they were
four of
five inches shorter than they were when we started. I guess it was a
plot to
desensitize me, and to some degree it was working.
On
my third to last visit, Dr. Cheryl asked me
to “stand up and take off my shirt.” Being a boy who was raised to do
as I was
told by adults I complied, but not without a whole lot of discomfort.
The hard
part wasn’t being so exposed in front of a doctor, but being so exposed
in
front of a rather recent female acquaintance. But, like I said, she was
an
adult.
To
put things in perspective, I was the kid who
had a hard time stripping down in the locker room at school and the
YMCA, and
that was in front of other boys. I really envied my age mates who
didn’t
hesitate to walk around with their dicks exposed to all. As I recall
there were
some who should have been a little more hesitant. Anyway, when I was in
the
gang showers at school or the Y, I would find ways to nonchalantly
cover my
boyhood. I’d soap up facing the wall of the shower and after finishing
I’d dry
myself making sure the towel draped in such a way as to cover my
sensitive
parts.
Though
I was sensitive to being seen even by my
male friends and even my brothers, I couldn’t really understand why. My
penis
was a bit longer than most kids my age, but the head was cleanly
exposed just
as theirs were. Circumcision was prevalent for most all of my fellow
youth. So
the only difference could have been the length of my phallus. I don’t
remember
any of them making remarks in the locker room or shower, but I do
remember my
closer friends playing with it.
From
seven or eight up to my eleventh year,
during sleep overs or time spent trapsing around in the woods, my
friends would
get me to strip naked by mutually doing so and, eventually, they’d get
around
to playing with my boyhood coaxing an erection. To this day, I don’t
know why I
was so shy about my public exposure, but would allow them to engage me
in sex
play. I guess it was their status as friends and the privacy of the
settings
where that would take place. At any rate, it was evident they were
intrigued
with the length of my penis. They often would ask why I didn’t wear
shorts. They
all did. And, that would also embarrass me.
I
remember, my friend Eddy, almost always
suggesting we play naked. We’d be in the woods and he’d make the
suggestion and
for some reason I’d comply. Eventually, he’d increase the feeling of
arousal by
games of challenge which led to one or the other increasing the
likelihood of
getting caught naked. One of his most memorable challenges to me during
a sleep
over in his backyard was to “walk slowly to the road and back and let
anyone
who drives by see your dick”, or “Go out to the road naked and stand
under the
street light for a count of three hundred. If a car comes by, put your
hands
behind your head and wiggle it around for them.” I must admit the
feelings were
mixed during such challenges. There was a mix of bravery and
naughtiness and
that always helped to maintain an extra stiff hard on. We never
considered that
his mother might be awake and watching the whole ordeal from a window.
But if
she was, she never said anything. Often he’d challenge me lay naked on
the
outside of the sleeping bag as he stroked my penis and ball sack.
Now,
here I was in a shrink’s office being asked
to remove my shirt. After doing so Dr. Cheryl had me remove my shoes
and socks.
I must admit I was beginning to wonder where in the hell all this was
leading. After
baring my chest and feet, I was told to sit down. With relief, I did
so. The
session was held with me wearing only my now very short cutoffs. And
so, it
went. For the next four of five sessions I was stripped to my shorts
for the
entire hour. On one occasion, the doctor reached over and stroked my
bare leg
as she conversed. I must admit having her touch my legs made it almost
impossible for me to concentrate on the conversation. On my fourth or
fifth
session she walked behind my chair and began massaging my bare
shoulders. It
felt good, but it was very difficult to pay attention to her
questioning.
Right
after the fifth session, the one where she
rubbed my shoulders, my parents mandated that I was to only wear
shorts, shoes
and socks everywhere unless they told me to wear other attire. Yep, no
shirt. I
was very self conscious as I walked out of my bedroom half naked. It
was
notable that no one made any comments, and, as I remember it, no one
even cast
a second glance except my friend Eddy. He was quick to comment on the
shorts. It
was a brief remark, but definitely suggested his surprise that I was
dressed
more like the rest of the boys in the neighborhood. Eventually, I
gained more
acceptance of half of my body. My mother’s friends still made comments
about my
“gorgeous legs”, which again made me feel like I was being compared to
females,
but I grew to ignore it.
In
the evening, Mom would rub my legs as we
watched TV. Again, it felt good and I quickly lost my
self-consciousness. Even
to the extent I didn’t pull away when other ladies found ways to rub my
legs
while awkwardly trying to maintain the appearance they were unaware
they were
coping a feel.
After
turning eleven, visits to Dr. Cheryl’s
office became a little less frequent. I kind of liked her though, she
wasn’t pushy,
and, from the beginning, she never gave me the impression she thought I
was
abnormal about my modesty. I was now wearing just shorts to our
sessions. I’d
just park my shoes and socks at the door and my shirt on the other
chair in her
office. She would talk and at the same time either rub my legs or
massage my
shoulders. I was now at a level where I could concentrate even during
these
side activities. I was comfortable with her, until...
“I
think we need for your to take off your
shorts. Go on, take them off.”
“What?”
“Take
your shorts off.”
Slowly
I rose and did so. After all she was a
doctor. Maybe she was going to give me a physical, but she was a female
and
that didn’t rest well with me. My cutoffs fell to the floor. I remember
the
thud the belt buckle made as it hit the throw rug covering the
hardwood. Speaking
of hardwood... Yep, I felt my little buddy straightening out.
“Put
them over there with your shirt.” I did so.
She
motioned for me to sit in the chair and the
session began. There I sat with a notable tenting in my cotton briefs.
“No,
no, keep your legs spread apart,” she
directed. “We want to watch what your little friend there is doing.”
Now
that was embarrassing. She made it
completely clear she was watching my penile behavior. It was near
impossible to
prevent my legs from wiggling. Speaking of that, about thirty minutes
into the
session I had to take a leak.
“Dr.
Cheryl, I need to go to the bathroom.”
“Oh,
sure, go ahead. You know where it is, right
outside in the waiting room.”
I
started to put on my shorts.
“Oh
no, just go in your underwear. Go on now.”
This
was just as challenging as Eddy’s dares. Though,
with Eddy, I was totally nude, with her I was going into a public space
with
nothing more than a pair of cotton briefs adorning my body in broad
daylight. Hopefully,
my mother was the only one in the room. Anyway, I slowly opened the
door, and,
sure enough, Mom was the only one out there beside the receptionist. I
quickly
scooted across the room toward the unisex bathroom.
“Gotta
go to the bathroom,” I mentioned to my
smiling mother as I passed.
I
do remember, before flushing, hearing my
mother and receptionist talking.
“He
is a good looking boy,” the receptionist
noted.
“Thank
you. It’s been a real trial, but Dr.
Cheryl seems to have done the impossible.”
“Oh
we’re almost there, Mrs. Davis. She’ll have
him down to nothing very soon. I’m sure. She’s very good with boys who
have the
modesty problem.”
I
wanted to flush, but I wanted just as much to
listen to what was going on. The plotting, as I saw it, was about me. I
was
interested in what was being planned by these three women.
“Well,
his Dad and I have been very pleased so
far. You know we make him wear only his shorts pretty much all the time
now. He
wouldn’t even think of wearing them until she got him to that point.”
“She
only has one more piece to go,” the
receptionist noted.
What
the hell is the “one piece to go” remark? Are
they working a puzzle or something?
“I
know and we will do our part when that piece
is taken care of.” Mom reassured her.
I
decided time was getting a little long. I’d
already passed the usual boy taking a pee limit so I flushed. Somewhat
confused
about what was going on, I scooted through the waiting room in my
underwear and
went back into the doctor’s inner sanctum.
After
that visit, my mother and father ordered
me to wear only my underwear or my shorty pajama bottoms while I was in
the
house. To make matters worse, no longer was I allowed to wear underwear
beneath
the pajama bottoms. I was to, as my father referred to it, free ball
when I
wore them. As a result, occasionally my pecker would show its bald head
sticking through the fly. Not to worry, one of my siblings would
invariably
laugh and point bringing it to my attention. As I pushed it back and
pulled at
the cotton fabric to cover it, all in attendance would giggle,
including Mom
and/or Dad. My father would almost always say, “Better put that worm
back in
the hole or a bird might get a hold of it.” This, of course, would
further
embarrass me and increase the volume of the giggling.
Two
months after having to peel down to my
scivies, on my bi-weekly visit to Dr. Cheryl she required the
unimaginable. “You
need to remove the underwear too, today.”
We’d
become very familiar with each other over
the year. But, not that familiar.
“You
mean, I have to be naked?” I could feel my
face flush.
“Yes,
naked.” She was so calm about it.
“I,
I...”
“Just
take them off Kenny. You’ll be fine.”
“But...”
“Just
pretend I’m your friend Eddy.”
How
in the hell did she know about Eddy? And,
just what did she know about him? Dumb founded I repeated his name in
question
form, “Eddy?”
“Yes,
you know your friend. The one who you run
around naked with.”
How
did she know about that? At any rate, I
wasn’t about to acknowledge it and give it any credence. I just stood
there
embarrassed.
“Just
take your underpants off and come over
here so we can get into our session.”
I
slid them off and draped them over my shorts
on the chair. As I did so, Dr. Cheryl offered, “You have a nice little
tight
butt there Kenny.”
That
did it. I clutched my erect penis and
attempted to cover it and my tight ball sack with my hands. I turned
around to
face the therapist. She gestured toward the chair. I walked to the
chair still
covering my package.
“Just
a minute,” she held up her hand. I stood
there wondering what was coming and she returned with a towel. She
threw the
towel over the chair and gestured for me to sit down. I did so, still
covering.
“I
need for you to keep your legs spread while
you sit. I still need to watch your little friend there.”
She
never asked me to move my hands. She just
went on with the session. She did bend forward and rubbed my legs as we
talked,
but she made no moves toward my still hand clenched erection or ball
sack.
“I’d
say you made a big step today, huh. Having
to be naked in front of this ‘girl doctor’. I’m really impressed with
your
bravery.” Where was she going with this?
When
the session ended, I was still clutching my
penis and shielding it from her view.
“Okay
you can get dressed now.”
I
quickly slid my underwear on while I faced the
wall of her office. That was followed by my shorts. She accompanied me
to the
waiting room where she held my bare shoulders and told my mother,
“We’re in the
final stages. It won’t be long. I’ll be in touch about changing the
home
program either next week or after our next session Anyway, I will talk
with you
soon.”
I
remember the conversation in the car on the
way home, “So what did you and Dr. Cheryl do today?”
“Nothing.”
I kind of suspected she knew full
well what happened, but I wasn’t sure.
“Nothing?
That was a lot of time doing nothing. You
were in there for an hour. What’d you talk about?”
“Mom,
we didn’t talk about anything. It was the
same old thing.”
“Well,
did she make you do the session in your
underwear again?”
“No.”
“She
didn’t! Did she let you keep your shorts
on?”
“NO!
Just drop it Mom.”
“I
want to know what you did that’s all. I’m
interested in you and how things are going with Dr. Cheryl.”
I
got the sense she wasn’t going to shut up. She
was going to keep on questioning until I gave her all the particulars.
“Okay,
I had to be naked today. She made me sit
there naked.” My tone was definitely angry highlighting my frustration.
“She
did?” She feigned surprise. “Did she touch
you?”
“What’s
that mean? Yeah, she rubbed my legs and
chest and back. Just like she always does.”
“Did
she rub anything else?” She was asking in
an innocent non-accusing voice. But I knew where she was headed.
“No.
She didn’t touch anything else.” I replied
with a whole lot of sarcasm. “Isn’t it wrong for an adult to make a kid
strip
naked? I mean isn’t that abuse or something?” I tried to make her
questioning
stop by framing the whole thing into another conversation.
“No,
Kenneth, she’s a doctor and what she’s
doing is for our own good. Your father and I are very pleased with the
progress
we’ve seen in you since you started with Dr. Cheryl. She’s very good
and
whatever she touches or does, we’ll support.”
The
next two weeks went on as normal. Except,
when I was home, my parents started to make me go outside in my
underwear or
pajama bottoms. When we had company, I was no longer allowed to don my
cutoffs.
I had to stay one clothing item from nudity. Most of the kids didn’t
take much
notice of my condition of dress, but the adults did. Mom’s friends
especially
took note and continually cast long gawking glances my way. Mrs.
Filmore made
me sit in her lap while she stroked my bare legs. I felt like a three
year old,
but if I didn’t comply, I’d get the belt from Mom as soon as the
company left.
Mrs.
Filmore was a rather stout mother of
three—two girls and a boy. Her kids were six to ten years of age. The
boy was
eight and could often be seen outside the house naked as the day he was
born. It
got so the neighbors would pretend to complain about the boy’s naked
forays,
but you could tell the complaints were false and they secretly hoped it
would
continue. Anyway, as she stroked my legs her hands would continually
bump my
genital area. She was even so brash as to run her fingers around the
elastic
leg closures of my briefs. I could feel her fingernails as they brushed
my
scrotum on the way by. All the while my penis was rock hard and tenting
the
front of my briefs. I knew she was fully aware of what she was doing.
Being
brazen enough to do it in front of Mom, her kids, my siblings and even
other
adult company was enough to convince me fondling young boys was
acceptable
behavior—at least in my case. But, all of this was to be confirmed on
my next
visit to Dr. Cheryl.
I
entered the office and dropped my shorts after
kicking off my shoes. I put them in the chair by the door. “Don’t
forget
underpants come off too.”
I
had secretly hoped we’d moved past that after
the last visit two weeks ago. I slid the briefs off facing the wall.
Again, I
turned clutching my boy parts. Dr. Cheryl motioned toward my chair
which was
already shielded by a clean towel. I sat down. I shivered trying to act
like I
was cold, she ignored that.
“Today,
I want you to move your hands to the
arms of the chair. Let your penis do what it wants. I’d like to watch
it.”
I
just sat there still clutching. I acted like I
either didn’t hear of didn’t understand the new rule.
“Kenny,
put your hands on the arms of the
chair.”
I
did. Mr. Penis was being very bad and stiffly
reached for the ceiling.
“Don’t
worry Kenny. Your penis is being
perfectly normal. Being hard is a normal reaction. Kenny, what do you
think
about your boy parts?”
She
paused.
“Do
you think your penis or your testicles are
different from other boys’?”
“Yeah.”
“Well
how do your think they’re different?”
“It’s
longer than my friends’.”
With
that she reached over and gently pinched
the glans between her thumb and forefinger pulling it to a more
perpendicular
position. “Well, it is long for a boy your age, but you know it looks
exactly
like other boys I’ve examined. Is it longer than Eddy’s?”
“Yeah.
His is more normal size.”
“What’s
normal size?”
“I
don’t know. Maybe this big,” I put the sole
of my hand about halfway down my erection.
“Does
his get hard like this?”
“Yeah”
“Well
then it works. So you both are the same.
Do you think there are many adults who haven’t seen naked little boys?”
“No.”
“Then
why are you so worried about people seeing
your naked body? Has anyone made fun of your legs since we made you
wear
shorts?”
“No.”
She
then began rubbing my erection and my
scrotum as we talked. Like when she started with my legs, I immediately
found
myself unable to concentrate. I do remember thinking how confusing it
was that
some folks felt what she was doing was a bad thing, while it felt so
good. After
awhile I just succumbed to having my boyhood handled by this lady who
I’d grown
to trust. Frankly after the initial fifteen minutes I found myself
spreading my
legs even wider apart to allow her better access.
“I
think we’re at a point in the process where
I’m going to cut our meeting to once a month. Why don’t you get dressed
and
I’ll visit with your mother in the other office.”
The
next thing I remembered was being in the car
and Mom saying, “When we get home you need to strip naked. I want you
to stay
that way for a little while.”
“Mooooommmmmm.”
“No Dr.
Cheryl said you were naked for the session
today. She wants us to make you stay naked at home for awhile. You know
just to
help you...adjust.”
“Do
I have to naked in front of everyone?”
“Yes.
It won’t be so bad. You’ll see. Remember
when we started? You wouldn’t even let people see your legs, much less
feel
them. Look how far you’ve come. Now, you let your therapist play with
your boy
parts.”
My
mind immediately went to images of Mrs.
Filmore playing with my skin flute. It was scary, but what’s a boy to
do?
I
was snapped back from that thought by my
mother’s remark, “I’ll tell you what, just take off your clothes now
and throw
them in the back seat. No time like the present.”
“Mooooooommmmmm,
come on I don’t want to.”
“I’m
not asking. Take off the shoes, socks,
shorts and underwear and put them in the back seat. I want you naked
right
now.”
Frightened
of the consequences for not doing as
I was told, I began to disrobe such as it was. I knew she wouldn’t
hesitate to
take one of Dad’s belts to my bare ass and for sure I’d get another
when Dad
got home. The physical pain was much more to be feared than the
embarrassment. Besides,
I’d have to be naked after the whipping anyway so what choice did I
have.
There
I sat totally naked in the front seat of
the car. Then I was ordered to spread my legs and keep my hands away
from my
boy parts. I again complied. My erect penis was sticking out and up at
the same
time and the very thought of being erect in front of my mother was more
troublesome than the nudity itself. I couldn’t help but stare at my
penis
hoping it would subside. It didn’t. Mom must have noticed my
embarrassment.
“You
know that’s what penises do when boys are
feeling vulnerable. What I mean, Kenny, is it is normal for your little
friend
there to be hard as a rock. Don’t worry though, as you get used to
being naked
it’ll learn to behave. Here let me rub it for you.”
While
we rode she stroked my hardened stick
without taking her eyes off the road. It really wasn’t as strange to
have a
parent doing that than it was when Dr. Cheryl did it. Guess you expect
that
your mother and father have been there before just not when you are
eleven.
“You
know I’ll see to it your sister and her
friends do this for you too.”
“I
don’t want them to. What do you mean? I have
to be naked in front of Karen and her friends?”
I
flushed and began to cry. The very thought of
being naked for all to see was more than my over modest personality
could
handle.
“You’ll
get used to it and so will they. I
imagine all the kids will be somewhat curious over the next couple of
weeks and
it will be kind of difficult for you when they start touching you down
there. Just
remember they’re just curious. Your father and I won’t let them do
something
that we feel will hurt you.”
Still
crying I tried desperately to change the
inevitable, “You mean everyone gets to touch me there?”
“Well,
yes, it’s the best way for you to accept
your body. You know we were very concerned over your insistence on not
even
exposing those smooth little legs of yours. No one expected that we’d
be seeing
you in the all together. You know you are a beautiful kid? I mean your
whole
body is much better than average and you have a smile that lights up a
room. So,
why not smile and just accept the naked time?”
“Did
Dr. Cheryl say to do this?”
“She
did. She wants you to accept your beautiful
body. She wants you to see how many other folks really think it’s
beautiful
too. We can do that by letting folks look and touch. You know what
they’re
going to want to touch too, don’t you?”
I
could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks. “My
penis.”
“Yes
that and those beautiful little globes down
there. I’m sure your backside will be interesting to some as well.”
“Please
don’t make me do this. Please, Mom,” I
was begging and sobbing at the same time.
“Oh,
stop the crying. It’ll probably be over
with in late August. Dr. Cheryl hopes we get it fixed before you get
some hair
down there, but we’ll see. Oh, I just happened to think, you’ll
probably make
Mrs. Filmore’s day. Don’t you think? I mean she’ll definitely have a
death grip
on that penis of yours.” She chuckled as she obviously envisioned the
event. “I
do know that there will be many photos taken over the next few months.
You’ll
be a celebrity.”
“This
is against the law. I know it is. The
teachers said no one could touch us down there. It was abuse. I’ll tell
the
police and everyone will go to jail.” I was angry through my tears and
lashed
out with the threat.
“Oh,
Honey, it’s only against the law when it
isn’t a part of a therapy program. Dr. Cheryl wrote this plan on a
prescription
and signed it. No one can do anything about it. Go ahead and call the
cops. They
can’t do a thing to anyone, unless they hurt your body physically,
except, of
course, should you need your bottom lit up for some reason. That’s
covered too.
Guess you just have to go with the flow here. I don’t want to put salt
in the
wound, but with Dr. Cheryl’s prescription, your father or I can parade
you down
Main
Street
downtown and no one can do a thing about it. Most wouldn’t anyway. I
think most
people will enjoy the view. So much so, they’ll probably have their
phone
cameras going wild.”
“Let’s
stop talking about it, okay. I hate you
guys. You aren’t good parents. Good parents wouldn’t do this to their
kids.” I
tried to hurt her sensibilities.
“Sorry
you feel that way. Good parents wouldn’t
let their boys grow up so shy about their bodies either.”
The
rest of the ride home was rather silent. I
didn’t want to talk. It wouldn’t have done any good anyway. Guess Mom
said her
piece too. She didn’t say anything else either. She even relinquished
her hold
on my penis and ball sack and returned her hand to the wheel. I
remember projecting
what was going to happen to me at the hands of the general public.
Tears
continued to fill my eyes. I think my mother was thinking about the
same
things, but she was pleased with the situation. She wasn’t the least
bit
embarrassed or apprehensive. That was the difference.
Just
before we turned down our street I tried
one last sarcastic comment. “I guess you’re happy.”
“Oh,
I sure am. I love seeing you naked. I
haven’t seen that penis of yours in at least two years. I love seeing
my kids’
bodies. They’re my art work. I love having my art on display especially
when
I’m proud of how it turned out. Hey, and with an even tan your naked
little
form will be even more enhanced.”
I
saw and opening. “If you guys wanted to see my
penis and stuff, I’ll strip for you whenever you want. You don’t have
to keep
me naked in front of everybody. Really, I’ll take my clothes off your
you or
Dad anytime you ask.”
“Kenny,
it’s not just about us seeing you naked.
You are a boy and boys shouldn’t be so modest. Look, you wouldn’t even
strip in
the locker rooms where all the little boys run around nude. Not you,
you were
too embarrassed.”
“I
striped in the locker room. I did, Mom. The
coach made us all take showers.”
“Kenny,
the coach called to tell us about your
body shyness. He said you would hide your genitals and rush to shower
and then
rush to get dressed hiding your penis with your hands. He said the
other boys
used to joke about it. And, Miss Mitchell at the Y said you never swim
and are
just as guarded about your body at the Y.”
“She’s
a girl and she gets to come into the
boys’ locker room. That isn’t right.”
“She’s
in-charge of the pool and she is an adult
who needs to keep order. Do the other boys complain about her being in
the
locker room?”
“Why
do boys have to swim naked at the Y? The
girls don’t.”
“How
do you know?”
“Mom,
I go to school with girls. We talk. They
get to wear bathing suits in the pool. So do adults.”
“Well,
Kenny, unfortunately you aren’t either. That’s
what I mean. Little boys shouldn’t be so modest. And, we’re fixing
ours.”
About
that time we were pulling into our
driveway. Mom took the keys out of the ignition and said, “Now let me
give you
some advice. When you go in there, if you don’t make a big deal about
being naked
neither will you sister or brothers. Just walk in like it’s the new
normal. And,
for God’s sake dry up those tears. You look pathetic.”
I
felt pathetic. I tried to take her advice, but
regaining normal composure was next to impossible. There was nothing
normal
about my situation so how could I act normal? Whatever “normal” meant.
As
we entered the house, my ten year old sister
was first to ask the obvious, “Why is Kenny naked?” I wouldn’t say she
had a
smile, but she was definitely amused. I stood there cupping my erection
and
ball sack as my brothers immediately joined the scene. Teddy my eight
year old
brother was actually blushing. It was almost like he sensed that might
be the
new look for the boys in the family. Billy the seven year old couldn’t
have
been less interested. He just looked up from his Legos and then went
back to
building.
“Children
your brother will be naked almost all
the time from now on. His doctor thinks if he stays naked it will make
him
better.”
Teddy’s
turn to ask the obvious, “What’s wrong
with him?”
“Oh,
nothing. He’s just learning to feel better
about himself. And, you and your friends can help.” I was wondering
where that
was going to lead, but so was Karen, my sister.
“What
do you want us to do?”
“We
want you to treat him just like you would if
he wasn’t naked, but with one exception. It would be nice if you would
rub his
peepee and little sack there occasionally. You know just feel it and
rub it. You
can have your friends help too.” Oh shit, she just opened a door that
traumatized me. “You can pull it or rub it, rub his legs, whatever. You
can
even feel inside his bottom. Anything you want to do as long as you
don’t hurt
him.”
“I
don’t want to feel in his butt hole, yuk,”
Billy muttered without even looking up.
“Kenny
put your hands down so your brothers and
sister can see your penis. You aren’t to cover up ever! Got it?”
I
moved my hands away slowly as my penis sprung
sticking out almost parallel to the floor. With that Teddy had to bring
attention to the scene, “Look he’s got a woody!”
My
mother and my sister grinned almost giggling
at his remark. Billy looked at my penis and then quietly returned to
his
project.
“The
doctor thinks the more often he has a
‘woody’ as you put it Teddy, the better off he will be. That’s why he
needs you
and your friends to touch it as often as you want to. In fact, Kenny,
we all
would like you to show us how to rub it.”
I
feigned ignorance, “Rub what?”
“Quit
the games. Start rubbing you penis for us.
You just stand there and rub it up and down so we can watch.”
“Moommmm,
that’s nasty.” I was really put out by
that command.
“It’s
not nasty. I’m sure you do it all the
time. You know at Eddy’s house. Or, does he get to rub it for you? “
How in the
hell did she know. What does she know? “Rub your penis so we can watch.
Oh,
wait, I want to record you doing that so we can share it with Dr.
Cheryl. Let
me get the video cam.” She went and got the Panasonic and returned.
Clicking it
on she again said, “Rub your penis for us, Honey.”
Even
Billy had stopped playing to watch this
activity. With my sister and two brothers watching and my mother
videoing the
whole thing, I slowly stroked my hard-on. As if it wasn’t bad enough,
my sister
joined in the directives, “Rub the tip. The pink part, rub it.” I did
as she
asked. Why? I don’t know, I just did. As I rubbed the glans Billy
cracked and
began giggling. “No squeeze it so the hole opens up.” I remember
thinking “How
in the hell does she know about the hole in a boy’s penis?” I didn’t
comply.
“You
heard your sister, squeeze it so she can
see the hole.” Mom muttered from behind the camera. I did. “Okay,
Teddy, go
over and rub Kenny’s peepee for him. Be sure to rub his balls too,
okay.” That
was the first time I heard my mother refer to them as balls, but my
brother
jumped up and willingly complied. His hands were smaller than mine, but
he had
quite a grip. Giggling he grabbed it in a choke hold and yanked it
hard. I
complained and everyone laughed. “Hey, Mom should I punch him in the
balls?”
“What?”
“You
know punch his nards? We do it to each
other at school all the time. My teacher calls it ‘boy grab ass’.”
“Your
teacher says, ‘ass’?” Karen asked.
“Mr.
Klein is a guy. He can say that.” Teddy
tried to defend his teacher.
“I
think he’ll get in trouble if the principal
hears him.” Karen retorted. Then after a brief pause, “Mom, when can I
feel
it?”
“Right
now, Karen. Just go over and feel it.”
Karen
moved toward me and Teddy relinquished his
hold. When she got to me she slapped the penis making it swing
violently left
and right. After it settled back to center point straight at her, she
pinched
the glans hard. I complained and she just grinned. Then using her index
finger
she pressed into my scrotum. “Hey, there are balls in there, aren’t
there?”
“What
did you think was in those bags on your
brothers?”
“I
don’t know. I never felt them before. Now I
get why they call them balls.”
“I
guess I should have let you bathe Teddy and
Billy so you could have explored a little bit more. You never felt your
brothers’ parts?” Mom was perplexed at how that was possible. What made
that
hard to swallow is that, except for a very rare occasion, none of us
ever even
saw Karen naked. If we did it was purely by accident.
“Nope,
just looked at them. I wanted to feel
them, especially when they got stiff like this,” she continued to
stroke the
shaft up and down as she spoke, “but never thought I could. I thought
you or
Dad would get mad at me for doing it.”
“Well
now you can make up for lost time,
especially with your big brother. Tell you what, you can have the
authority to
tell Teddy or Billy to strip whenever you’d like. If they don’t tell me
and
we’ll strip ‘em and whip their bare asses for not doing what you told
them. How’s
that sound?”
“Not
fine,” Billy shouted.
“You
mean me too?” Teddy was flabbergasted.
“She’s
your big sister. She should be able to
pull rank every now and then. Look, it could be worse. You boys could
have to
stay naked all the time like Kenny. How would you like that? Remember,
little
boys shouldn’t have any modesty. Your brother is learning that a little
late.”
“You
mean I could have all three naked when my
friends come over?” I could see Karen plotting.
“Well,
I suppose you could. Or, you could take
them to your friends’ houses and make them strip there. Whatever you
want.”
“How
long can I make them stay naked?”
“As
long as you want.”
“And
my friends and I can touch anything we
want?”
“Sure,
why all the questions?”
“I
don’t know. It’s just so weird, but I like it
and so will they.”
I
can honestly say, I think it sunk in to Teddy
at that point that he was in real trouble now and my situation wasn’t
near as
funny to him. Billy didn’t seem to be too put off by the new rules.
Guess it
was his age. But as for me, misery truly does love company.
“Can
we make them do things to each other?” Karen
was relentless. And, at the time, I truly didn’t absorb the impact of
this
question.
“I
suppose you could. What are you going to make
them do?”
“Oh,
I don’t know, but say one of my friends
wants them to suck on another one’s peepee. Let’s just say...”
“Well,
you know boys their ages aren’t
‘shooting’ anything so I suppose that would be all right. Let’s ask
your Dad
about that one though.” Finally, a male perspective was being sought.
Dad would
never allow that to happen. I couldn’t wait until he got home and set
some of
the ground rules to keep Mom from going overboard. She, and now my
sister were
completely out of control.
(The End)