My New Punishment Part 6
By Nocti Raven
nocti.raven@gmail.com
Copyright 2012 by Nocti Raven, all rights reserved
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of sexual activity
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Jess
told me not to say anything to Sam. She said she’d handle everything
herself. I
made the choice, and she did the rest.
I
wondered how Sam would react. I wondered if I’d made a mistake. Sam was
in most
of my classes, so I couldn’t get him out of my head. I tried to calm my
nerves
by imagining best-case scenarios: Jess tells Sam what’s going on, he
think it’s
horrible, and somehow finds a way to make it all stop without telling
anyone.
Yeah,
right. As if the universe was ever that fair.
I
had given Jess a name, and she was going to recruit my new
disciplinarian. But
I wished she would just get on with it. The suspense was killing me.
Like
everything else lately, it began on a Friday, after school.
I
stepped out of the school and looked around; usually Ryan or Jess would
be
waiting to take me home. No one was there, so I considered walking home
alone.
But if Ryan was just running a few minutes late, and I left without him
. . .
that would not be good for me. Then again, I didn’t want to stand here
waiting
all night. What if they were at home expecting me? What if I showed up
late,
and got punished for it?
“Hey!”
said a voice, and I nearly jumped out of my pants.
It
was Sam, coming from behind. He put a friendly arm around me.
“Oh,
uh . . . hey,” I said weakly.
“What’s
the matter, Jake? It feels like you’ve been avoiding me the last few
days.”
What
to say to that? I really was avoiding him, so—
“Hey,”
he said. He pulled me in close and whispered in my ear, “I had a nice
little
chat with your sister.”
And
that was all he needed to say. He started walking, and I followed. We
ended up
on the path to his house instead of mine; Sam lived a little closer to
the
school than I did. Once we’d left school grounds, and everyone else was
out of
earshot, Sam slowed down and walked beside me. His curly hair bounced
with
every step, and his smile just wouldn’t quit.
“So,”
he said, “to inaugurate this new world order, you’re going to sleep
over at my
house for this weekend.”
That
in itself wasn’t too unusual. Sam was, after all, one of my best
friends, and
often hosted our little get-togethers. “Shouldn’t I stop at my house,
then?
Like, to pack an overnight bag?”
Sam
chuckled. “Oh, I don’t think you’ll be needing any . . . extra clothes.”
I
shuddered. That comment really drove the point home: Sam knew
everything. He
already had exactly the same power over me that Jess and Ryan did, and
it
looked like he’d be enforcing at least one of the same rules.
If
anything, this was even weirder than Jess and Ryan. I had a different
kind of
relationship with Sam. He was a friend—an equal. He was a few months
older than
me, but several inches shorter, so it evened out. But now . . . now he
was
above me. Far above. I mean, Sam
was
always a dominant personality, always a bit like the boss within our
group of friends,
but now I was even less than his underling-friend; now I was a slave.
“And
Ryan?” Sam said. “Seriously?”
I
just looked down.
“I
mean, seriously! How could you let
that cocky douchebag just walk into your life and do this shit?”
“Well,”
I tried, “it started ‘cause we were working together on that project—”
“So?
You’ve worked with Zack on projects, and I don’t see you sucking his dick.”
I
looked around, panicked, but fortunately there was no one nearby. “Do
you have
to say stuff like that out loud, in public?”
He
smirked. “I think I can do whatever the fuck I want, and you just have
to lie
there and take it.”
I
cringed.
Sam
reached up and ruffled my hair, laughing heartily. “Ah, cheer up. It’s
not all
bad. At least it’s me, right? Just imagine if you’d picked Carter; he’d
probably put you on a leash and walk you around school naked on all
fours, just
to show off how hard he spanks you.”
“So,”
I said, withholding a sigh of relief, “you wouldn’t do something like
that?”
Sam’s
eyes narrowed and his grin broadened. “Probably.”
I
was right to hold in that sigh.
Again
he laughed. “Relax, Jake. Your secret’s safe with me. We’ve been pals
for,
like, five years; the least I can do is not tell anyone about this.”
Then, very
briefly, his smile wavered, replaced by something sinister. “But we’re
not just pals anymore. Don’t you
forget
that. Part of the reason I’m keeping quiet is ‘cause I like the idea of
having
all the fun myself.”
Fun?
Oh shit. What if this wasn’t the
right choice? What if Sam wasn’t going to help me after all?
No!
I couldn’t afford to think like that. I had to keep hoping. He’s still my friend. He’s still on my side,
at least a little. He’ll come around . . . he’ll see that it’s not
right. He’s
just got to.
When
we got to Sam’s house, I could feel my world changing. This new
relationship
made everything different. His house was a lot like mine, but now it
looked
somehow taller, darker, more imposing. When we stepped inside, the
smell of the
place felt stronger—it was the smell of Sam’s dog, Bruce. That was the
one
thing I’d never liked about Sam’s house; I was a cat person.
On
any other day, I’d kick off my shoes and drop my backpack, then head
down to
the basement game room. But things were different now. I knew innately
that my
shoes had to be slipped off, and placed neatly on a mat. And my bag . .
. what
to do with that? Were there hooks? Was there a designated—
“Naked,
bitch.”
Oh god . . .
I
turned slowly to face Sam. His arms were crossed over his chest, and
his
expression was . . . not exactly stern, but certainly expectant. It was
hard to
look stern with a constant smile.
“Did
I stutter?” he said. “Do you think the rules don’t apply at my house?
They do,
so if you don’t want a spanking, you’ll get naked right now . . . bitch.”
His
cheek muscles were working overtime on that smile. Ryan smiled out of
pride,
out of sadistic satisfaction, but Sam was different. His smile was raw
mirth,
almost laughter. This whole thing was funny
to him.
Stripping
was automatic at this point. I tuned out the world and focused on the
task of
removing my clothes. I obsessed over every motion, every sensation of
fabric
rubbing against my skin. That way I didn’t have to think about Sam
watching me,
about what he must be thinking, about the possibility of his family—
Oh
god . . . they’re all going to see. Sam can keep the secret from
everyone at
school, but not here. His parents and his sister would wonder why I’m
naked,
and he’d have to tell them. He could say I lost a bet, I guess, but
that would—
“Wow,”
Sam said, interrupting my thoughts.
I
was naked, my clothing neatly folded and piled on top of my backpack in
a
corner. I’d been programmed not to cover myself; modesty was a
punishable offense.
I
winced. Here it was: me naked, Sam totally in control, the future
uncertain.
Once
again I found myself wondering, how did I
ever get into this? How could I let it get this far? How did this
happen to me?
“Well,
Jake, I knew you were small, but this is . . .” He adjusted his
glasses. “In my
expert scientific opinion, that is an infant penis.”
With
karate master quickness, he grabbed it between his thumb and
forefinger. He
began twisting it delicately. I cringed.
“Jeez,
how do you even jerk off with this? Do
you jerk off? Do you even like girls yet, or do you still think they’re
icky?”
He
gave me hard flick in the forehead with his fingernail.
“Hey!
I asked you a question, bitch. When I ask a question, you answer it!”
“Yes,”
I whimpered.
“Yes,
what?”
“I
do like girls . . . and I do . . .”
He
chuckled. “You do jerk off? You masturbate, but you can’t say it. You really are a baby. Can this
little chode even shoot
yet, or do your balls not work?”
“Uh,
yeah . . . I shoot. A little.”
“A
little,” he scoffed. “Makes sense. Come on.” He began walking to the
stairs,
and gave my dick a little tug to say follow.
“I’m gonna show you what a real man’s cock looks like.”
I’ve already seen a real man’s
cock . . . but
I had a feeling Sam didn’t want to hear that right now. It was probably
unwise
to contradict him.
For
the first time in many years, I went upstairs instead of down. No more
game
room for me. The game room was for his playmates; I was a plaything, a private toy to be kept in his
bedroom.
Sam’s
room was basically the opposite of Ryan’s: it was a mess, exactly the
way a
fourteen-year-old boy’s room ought to look: dirty clothes on the floor,
old
toys and games scattered about, lose papers and homework and writing
supplies
spilling off the cluttered desk.
If
Jess and Ryan saw this room, they might question whether Sam was a
suitable
authority figure.
Then
again, there’d be no doubt if they could see the two of us. Me naked,
hunched
over in shame, arms rigidly at my sides; Sam, looking comfy and casual
in
shorts and a t-shirt, arms crossed, smile broad. Him being shorter than
me
enhanced the effect, the way it did with Jess.
“You
look so fucking pathetic right now.”
I
almost said, “I know,” but it was always hard to speak in these
situations.
He
grabbed my upper arm, his fingers wrapping all the way around. It
wasn’t just
that I was skinny; Sam had big hands—and, now that I noticed it, some
decent
definition around the bicep. Certainly no bulge, not like Ryan’s, but
certainly
more impressive than my scrawny appendages.
His
frame was small, but he was truly a bigger man than I was.
He
pulled over to his bed. I almost tripped over a bunched pair of pants,
and he
laughed as I stumbled.
“Get
on the bed,” he said. “All fours.”
I
obeyed. This was a new position for me, both for spanking and for the
other
thing. I awkwardly climbed onto the bed and assumed the position. I
faced the
wall; my pitifully exposed butthole faced Sam.
“Are
you clean?” he said.
“Wh-what?”
“Your
asshole. Is it clean?”
I
winced. Was he really going straight to . . . that? “Y-yes,” I
stuttered. “Ryan
had insisted that I keep myself hygienic ever since he started taking
advantage.
My
whole body seized up as something pressed against my unprotected anus.
I
almost couldn’t believe it. Sam was my friend . . . quite possibly my best friend. And now he had betrayed me.
Now I was a toy. My best friend was literally fucking me in the ass.
No
. . . that wasn’t it. What I felt was too small to be a real man’s cock
. . .
and the texture was all wrong. I was feeling the slow, inexorable
advance of an
unlubricated finger.
He
wiggled it around. I squirmed.
“You
like this?” he said.
It
sounded rhetorical, but I now knew better than to leave a question
unanswered—especially in this position.
But
I wasn’t really sure how to answer.
I
didn’t like it one bit, but that probably wasn’t what Sam wanted to
hear.
“Wh-what?”
“Do
you like this?” he repeated. “I know there’s a spot in there that makes
it feel
good. The prostate. I figure I might as well find it. Maybe you won’t
hate me
so much if I make it good for you too.”
Now that was a strange comment. He
wanted
it to be good for me too. In a weird, fucked up way, that was like a
ray of
hope. Sure, he was inevitably going to rape me, but at least he’d try
to . . .
be nice about it. He cared.
And
he was actually concerned that I hated him. But I didn’t hate him. Not
really.
I should have hated him, but I
didn’t. That came as a shock, even to me. I hated Ryan, and I hated
Jess . . .
but not Sam.
Ryan
and Jess had gone out of their way to torture me, to get me into this
position.
But Sam had just found me like
this.
He was just following his instincts, doing what anyone would do in this
situation . . . right?
Right?
Or
maybe this wasn’t normal behavior. Maybe a normal person, a reasonable,
rational person, would be appalled by my situation, and fight for my
freedom.
Or was that just wishful thinking? Three people already had taken
advantage;
maybe it’s just normal . . .
How did this happen? How have I
gotten so fucked up that I don’t even know what normal is? What have
they done
to me? I’ve got to—
But
suddenly my brain shut down; I couldn’t think, couldn’t move, couldn’t
breathe.
All I could do was experience the nigh orgasmic sizzle in my
midsection. Sam
had found it—he’d found what Ryan touched the last time he fucked me.
“Oh,”
Sam said, “there it is.”
He
prodded it again and again, stroking it with his fingertip. Each time a
wave of
pleasure roared through me. My dick was hard, probably almost three
inches. I
found myself involuntarily moving with the finger, bucking back and
forth. It
felt so good, I just lost control.
So
much pain had enveloped my world—pleasure like this was overwhelming.
It broke
me, broke everything I’d clung to. My last shreds of dignity washed
away in the
torrent of sensation, and I found myself panting like an animal,
grunting . . .
almost like Ryan that time.
Then
it stopped. He stopped moving his finger, and the pleasure stopped
flowing.
Suddenly my brain started working again, and I was acutely aware that
the room
was silent, that the only audible sound was my own perpetual panting.
“So,”
Sam said, “do you like that?”
“Yes,” I breathed.
“Good,”
he said, and I could hear the smile distorting the word. “It’s kinda
hard to
reach with my finger, but my dick should have no problem.”
That
should have scared me; the thought of Sam violating me with a big manly
dick
should have made me wince; the thought that his dick was longer than
his finger
should have driven me mad with jealousy . . . but it didn’t.
It
felt . . . good. If his dick could
hit that spot, and if he cared enough to do it, then I wanted it. I wanted him to fuck me.
Oh my god . . . how did it come
to this?
I don’t want to get fucked, I
thought. It’s humiliating, it’s degrading,
it’s just
wrong. But it’s inevitable now. I lost my personhood the first time
Ryan did
it; now getting fucked is my unavoidable destiny. But at least it feels
good
now. At least it’s not all bad anymore. I must cling to this.
This is the best thing that’s
happened to me since this whole thing started. This is the first time
I’ve
actually looked forward to something. This is the first time someone’s
actually
done something nice for me.
Sam
grabbed my ankles and flipped me over. My arms flailed, but they were
weak from
propping me up. Before I knew it, I was on my back, looking up at Sam
the way I
looked up at Ryan.
He looks so tall from down here.
He
peeled off his shirt and shrugged off his shorts. Boxers, the real man’s undies.
I hadn’t seen Sam in this state of undress in a long time. The muscle
definition was all over. He wasn’t muscular like Ryan was, but he was
wiry,
fit, tough.
Then
he slipped his boxers down, and showed me a real man’s cock. It was
hard as
iron, and raring to go. If I had to guess, I’d say Sam’s dick was maybe
a
teensy bit smaller than Ryan’s, but it looked bigger on his small
frame. All in
all he looked . . . intimidating.
“Impressed?”
All
I could do was nod dumbly.
Sam
grabbed a conspicuously half-empty tub of Vaseline from his bedside
table,
scooped out a glob, and rubbed it all over his veiny member.
“I’d
use a condom,” he said, “but I expect you’re a few years shy of your
first
period.”
To
my utter amazement, I almost laughed at the joke.
“But
if you do get pregnant, I promise to pay for the abortion.”
Then
he grabbed my ankles and bent me into the position—thighs against my
torso,
butt in the air. It was uncomfortable, but that was a small price to
pay.
Sam
stuck his big, slimy dick into little defenseless hole . . . and what
followed
defies description.
The
pleasure and the pain were fighting a tug-of-war, and I was the rope.
The
gratitude and the humiliation were so immense, my brain wasn’t big
enough for
the both of them.
To
be on my back, getting fucked silly like a girl—and enjoying it . . .
Nothing makes sense anymore . . .
But
then he started to speed up, and the sensation exploded out of control.
I
couldn’t think anymore. All I could do was lie there and take it . . .
and I
took it all in.
Sam
went for much longer than Ryan ever had. He was less harsh, less
violent—but no
less passionate. Watching Sam’s body gyrate . . . watching his stomach
muscles
contract with every thrust . . . it was almost hypnotic.
When
he finally came, he came with a bang. He drew himself out, so only the
tip
remained inside me, like a golfer winding up a swing. Then he drove
back in, a
single impassioned thrust, arching his back and smashing his pelvis
against my
butt. He went deeper than he’d ever gone . . . and I actually felt him
come. It
shot out with so much force, such powerful pulses, that I could
actually feel
it inside me, cascading against my insides.
He
was leaning over me, staring into my eyes. I wasn’t sure what to do,
what to
feel. We were both panting heavily, both unable to speak.
Sam
looked down, and gave an exhausted, throaty chuckle. I leaned down to
see what
was so funny, and I saw several little gobs of semen on my stomach,
quivering
as I inhaled and exhaled.
But
he came inside me! How could it—
Oh . . . it
was me. I’d come, and not even realized it. A mere orgasm was
lost in the endless whirlwind of feeling.
He made me come from the inside .
. . like a gay guy . . . like a girl.
Slowly
Sam leaned back and drew his dick out of me. It was halfway flaccid
now, but
still bloated with blood, and still of a menacing size.
I
realized that my body had lingered in the diaper position, legs in the
air. I
gingerly lowered them, afraid of cramps. From the butt-down, I dangled
over the
side of the bed; it was awkward, but it made breathing easier. My lungs
and my
stomach inflated so fast that a little drop of my sperm went flying and—
Oh fuck.
—landed
right on Sam’s bedspread.
And
he saw it happen.
He
scoffed. His panting had died down faster than mine—a sign of
miraculous
stamina.
“Tsk tsk, Jake. You shouldn’t have
done
that.”
“I’m
s—” I wheezed, but I couldn’t get the word out. “I’m s—”
I’m sorry, I thought, but it
wouldn’t do any good. Even if I could catch my breath and get the word
out, it
wouldn’t do any good. I remembered the warning he’d given me on the way
here: “But we’re not just pals anymore. Don’t
you
forget that.” He was my disciplinarian first, and my friend
second. Even if
he did care a little, punishment
was
the prority.
He
sat down on the bed next to me. I still couldn’t bring myself to get
up; I was
so drained that all I could do was lie there panting.
Sam
dragged his middle finger along my belly, scooping off the remaining
drops of
cum. Then he stuck the gooey finger right in my face. From the smell,
it was
clearly the same finger he’d stuck in my butt before.
He
poked at my lip, and I did the same thing I did when Ryan’s dick poked
at my
lips.
As
disgusting as it was to suck on that finger, all I could think was that
my
sperm tasted worse than Ryan’s did.
I wonder how Sam’s cum tastes . .
.
Oh God, did I really just think
that?
Sam
removed the finger once it was clean.
“Don’t
feel relieved just yet. That was just clean-up. Your punishment for
staining my
bed is about to begin.”
And
then fear crept back into my body . . . as I felt Sam’s fingers
wrapping around
my balls.
I
let out an involuntary pleading whimper. Ordinarily I held those in,
but my
self-control was totally annihilated. It’s a good thing I was too
exhausted to
move, or I might have instinctively covered my balls with my hands.
“I’ve
been looking forward to giving this a try.”
His
grip tightened. I gritted my teeth and winced.
“That
hurt?”
He
squeezed tighter. I arched my back, fighting the pain.
“Ooh,
yeah. That hurts.”
And
then he started to twist.
“Please!” I moaned, “Please stop!”
“Why?”
he demanded. “Give me a reason.”
There
were a billion reasons. Because it’s wrong. Because I don’t deserve
this. Because—
He
squeezed even tighter.
“I’ll
suck your dick!” I cried. “I’ll suck it every day! I’ll clean your
room! I’ll
walk your dog! I’ll do
anything
you want! Just please make it stop!”
And
he did. He let go of my balls, and left me to my redoubled panting.
Several
minutes passed. I could hear Sam moving about the room, doing one thing
or
another, but I remained on my back, staring up at the ceiling. After a
while,
once my breathing had returned to almost-normal, Sam spoke to me.
“Get
up.”
I
obeyed without hesitation, but it was a slow process. My arms were too
wobbly
to prop up my body, and my legs were almost too numb to support my
weight. But
somehow I got shakily to my feet.
Then
I saw Sam. His curly hair was damp, and he had refreshed look to him.
He was
wearing a clean t-shirt and a new pair of boxers.
“Shower’s
all yours,” he said. “Don’t take too long, and don’t use too much
shampoo. Go
wild with the body wash, though. Oh, and my sister’s douche is in the
cupboard.
Figure out how to use it.”
I
obediently shuffled into the bathroom Sam shared with his sister,
Audrey.
Luckily Audrey kept her equipment in the box, so there were
instructions. For
some odd reason, asking Sam to help me douche my ass seemed like an
unbearable
humiliation—despite the fact that he’d just fucked me.
The
shower was incredibly refreshing. Brief though it was, it gave me time
to think
about everything that had just happened.
All
things considered, I was hopeful. Despite the ball squeeze, Sam was
undeniable
improvement over Jess and Ryan. He may be
my disciplinarian, but he’s also my friend. His punishments
might be out of
proportion, but at least he was reasonable: he would only punish me if
I did
something wrong.
There
was actually hope, then, hope that I could improve my situation by not
doing
anything wrong. As long as I remained obedient and well-behaved, our
relationship could be something . . . positive.
Strangely,
the sexual stuff had become separate from the punishment. Ryan had
introduced
blowjobs and fucking as new forms of discipline, but now that stuff was
just
for fun. It was just another thing they could tell me to do, another
order I
could be punished for disobeying. And with Sam, obeying was a little
easier.
When
I emerged from the shower and toweled myself off, Sam invited me
downstairs to
the game room. We played videogames, watched movies, ordered a pizza .
. .
It
was an eerily normal evening. I remained naked, of course, and Sam’s
new power
loomed over me constantly, making me considerably more docile and less
argumentative than usual. But despite that, he let the night be normal.
He
cracked a few jokes about spanking me and fucking me, but I actually
managed to
laugh it off; for the time being, he was only joking.
There
was only one little moment when I was genuinely afraid. The doorbell
announced
the arrival of our pizza, and Sam ordered me to get the door—without
putting
any clothes on. When he saw the look of terror in my eyes, he laughed
heartily,
clapped me on my naked shoulder, and got the door himself.
He
explained that his parents were away on business, like mine often were,
and
that his sister usually stayed at her boyfriend’s house on weekends.
They
already knew about our arrangement, he assured me, and they’d agreed to
keep
quiet about it. But I would eventually have to endure the humiliation
of them
seeing me in this condition. Maybe not this week, maybe not next week,
but
they’d come around eventually.
As
3AM rolled around, we stuck a horror movie in the DVD player and got
ready for
sleep. Sam took the couch; I got the floor. But he did give me the
warmer
blanket, acknowledging that I was certainly more liable to get cold.
The
opening credits began to roll, and I began to close my eyes, and Sam
spoke.
“Jake,”
he said, “I want you to know that . . . it didn’t have to be this way.
I gave
you chances. Any time tonight, you could have stood up to me, you could
have
told me to fuck off. And I would have listened. I would have respected
you for
it, and I would have backed the fuck off.”
He
slid off the couch and sat next to me. I froze, shivering, as he
reached under
my blanket and his fingers captured my balls once again.
“But
you didn’t stand up to me. You just let it all happen. Don’t get me
wrong;
we’re still friends and all . . . but now you’re definitely my bitch.”
He
gave me one little squeeze, just to make his point, then jumped back on
the
couch and went promptly to sleep.
I
got very little sleep that night. I lay awake for hours, haunted by
Sam’s
words.
He
was right. There were lots of times when I could have put my foot down
and said
no. But I’d passed them all up. He’d seen me naked, fucked me in the
ass, and
squeezed my balls—he’d established his dominance, made me his bitch.
There was
no turning back.
I could have fixed it all tonight
. . . I could have been free.
With
Sam on my side, I could have escaped from Jess and Ryan. Together we’d
be
strong enough to break their hold on me.
But
I’d missed my chance. Now Sam was on no one’s side but his own.
For
the thousandth time I asked myself: How
did this happen?
How did I get like this? What did
they do to me?
How did I get so submissive that
I can’t . . .
I can’t do anything.
I can only be thankful that I
have Sam now. At least Sam is better than Jess and Ryan.
At
least with Sam . . . there was hope.
To
be continued . . .
===
A
note from the author
Once
again I must enclose my sincerest apologies for how long this took. My
life has
an unfortunate habit of getting very busy, and erotica, sadly, is often
the
first thing that gets shunted to the back burner. And on top of that,
every
artist is at the mercy of a muse—inspiration strikes when it feels like
it.
Thanks
so much to everyone who’s managed to not lose interest in this story.
And
an extra special thanks to everyone who’s emailed me with comments on
this
tale. Inspiration hit me and I felt like writing, and I was this close to writing another standalone
short story. But then I thought . . . of all the emails I’ve ever
gotten about
my stories, 90% are about “My New Punishment.” I don’t know what makes
this
story so much better than my others ones, but this is the one that
people want
continued the most. So I’d like to thank all the people who sent those
emails.
You motivated me to channel my writerly urges into this chapter, and I
couldn’t
be happier with the result.
In
fact, I like to think I’ll be a bit more prompt in writing the next
installment. Don’t hold me to that, but it’s a very real possibility.
I
hope people like this chapter. Any comments, the good, the bad, and the
neutral, are always welcome.
Thanks
for reading.
Stay
tuned,
Nocti
Raven.
The End