Be Careful What You Ask For 1
By David
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Be Careful What You Ask
For
by David
I
was admittedly a strange child, obsessed with odd little fantasies but too shy
to tell anyone. During my adolescence I
embarked on a series of secret adventures to satisfy my insatiable curiosity. Only when I got caught did I realize just how
careful you have to be about what you ask for … it just might come true!
Part One – How It All
Began
When
I was a kid I had this crazy obsession with being naked. I can’t remember exactly when it all started,
but as far back as I can recall I’ve loved the idea of being in my birthday
suit. I wasn’t obsessed with sex or
anything like that; I was simply curious about going around in my bare skin.
I
do have vague memories of running around bare bottomed as a little tyke. My mom told stories about how she let me go
naked at the beach or while playing in the back yard. Apparently she would turn me over to my girl
cousins and let them watch over me while the adults were busy doing other
things. Nobody cared and I obviously
didn't know any better at the time.
“David
was so adorable back then, running around with his cute little bare bottom,
giggling and playing without a care in the world,” Mom often boasted to her
friends. “It was like raising a naked
little monkey.”
“Mom! Don’t tell people that!” I’d fuss. “You’re embarrassing me!”
“Why
not? It’s all true. You were a cute little monkey. You still are.”
“MOM!!!”
As
you can no doubt tell, my mother really enjoyed teasing me about that period of
time in my life and the stories she’d tell would get bigger and more
embarrassing with each rendition. I
wasn’t sure just how true they were, but my aunt and cousins sided with my
mother and swore it all really happened.
I have vague memories of the girls and their friends playing “tag” and
“hide and seek” with me, taking me down to the creek behind our house to catch
tadpoles and splash around in the water.
When we went to the beach they’d strip me down, cover me from head to
toe with lotion and then turn me loose building sand castles and chasing waves
with the other kids.
Apparently
I was the only one who ever went naked; the girls were all older, so they wore
sundresses or shorts or bathing suits, depending on what we were doing. It didn’t matter that I was the only one
parading about in my birthday suit in front of everyone, family, friends and
strangers alike.
I
remember one time when some kids at a picnic picked on me, pointing and
laughing because I was running around with no clothes on. My cousins took up for me, fussing at the
bullies and shooing them away. Afterward
I got all sorts of hugs and tickles, which made things all better. I was only about four or five at the time, so
what did I care?
My
Aunt Margaret enjoyed sharing naked stories about me as much as my mother.
“The
girls all loved taking care of you and most of the time you were a little
angel,” she would tell me over and over again.
“If you ever misbehaved all we had to do was get a switch and flick you
a couple of times across that cute little butt and the back of your legs. You’d dance around and cry and cry. But after a few kisses you’d turn back into
our little naked curly haired angel and go on playing with the girls like
nothing happened.”
Everyone
would laugh whenever she told that story.
I’d raise a fuss, but it never did any good.
“That’s
not funny!” I would complain. “I wish
you all would stop talking about me like that.
It’s humiliating!”
“Ah,
well, those were the good old days,” my mom would say with a sigh. “Now he’s all grown up and way too mature to
do that anymore.”
"You
got that right," I remember saying. “That’s not ever going to happen
again! Never, ever!”
“Never
say never,” my Aunt Margaret would tease.
Despite
all of my tough talk I was both excited and embarrassed by these stories. I kinda sorta liked hearing about them, I
guess because I got all sorts of attention from my family. But the truth of the matter was that by the
time I was in grade school I’d become way too shy to go without any
clothes. Not no way, not no how!
You
see, as I became older I grew so bashful that I never left my room unless I was
fully dressed from head to toe, shoes, pants, shirt, the whole nine yards. Even in the heat and humidity of the summer
when my friends were out playing in shorts and no shirt, sometimes getting
sprayed with the water hose in their bathing suits and – in a few brave cases –
in their whitey-tighties, I’d be all zipped and buttoned up and secure in my
modesty.
Part
of the reason I became so afraid of going naked as I got older was, well, I
didn’t like how I looked without clothes.
When I was little and it was just my mom and her sister and the girls I
didn’t care. When I began to have friends
I discovered I wasn’t exactly the athletic type; more of a bookworm, I never
lost my baby fat, leaving me plump and doughy where my buddies all were lean
and scrawny. I wasn’t exactly obese, not
like some of the really fat guys I knew, but whenever I looked in a mirror I sure
felt that way. I had a big butt and
pudgy legs compared to the other boys and my arms were soft and not much good
for throwing baseballs or doing chin ups.
Complicating
matters, by the time I was in fifth grade my chest began to swell up around the
nipple area, which only added to my shame; I was growing little boobs, just
like a girl! The doctor told my mom I
would grow out of it and not to worry.
That was easy for him to say. He
didn’t have to worry about a bunch of bullies at school teasing him during gym
class and making his life miserable.
“Wow,
nice titties, sissy boy,” was the comment I heard the most. The other was, “Maybe you ought to ask your
mommy to get you a bra, you faggot!”
Being
cursed with a small penis didn't help my situation, either. I got a lot of grief over that, too. I eventually got a reputation among the
bigger boys for being something of a sissy, so I kept pretty much to myself and
my books and my thoughts. I mean, who
wants to hang around some bullies and get called “girly boy” and “fairy” and
“fag” all the time?
And
this was in elementary school!
Hearing
all these things about me from my classmates really got me to thinking. I remember standing in front of the mirror at
home and staring at my girlish nipples in despair; cupping one in each hand, I
wondered if my classmates were right, if I indeed would end up some day wearing
a bra.
Of
course, I just had to look down at my little penis. That was a mistake. I almost felt sorry for it. I know I felt sorry for myself at the time.
“I don’t wanna wear a bra,” I whispered,
staring at my effeminate reflection.
“And I don’t wanna be a girly boy, either!”
I
vowed right then and there to never let anybody ever see me naked. Not ever.
But
still, I thought about it. A lot. I just couldn’t help it.
***
As
I grew older my curiosity about nudity turned into an obsession; this, in spite
of my fear of being seen naked. I loved
looking at pictures of naked sprites and nymphs in the fairy tale books and
later the paintings and sculptures of nude cupids and angels in classical
art. Not even my studies could keep me
from my odd little thoughts as I thought it would be especially fun to go
without clothes like the aboriginal natives did in foreign lands or the Greek
warriors in ancient times.
I
know all this sounds weird, especially for a little kid, but I couldn’t help
myself. There was just something about
being naked that hit a nerve in my psyche and I thought about it constantly,
during the day at school, on Sundays at church and, of course, at night in the
privacy of my bedroom.
The
excitement of being naked was fueled by some of my dad’s old men’s magazines I
found in the basement. I was in sixth
grade at the time, making me about eleven years old. And like any boy that age, I was absolutely
thrilled with my discovery! First, there
were the typical girlie magazines with big breasted playmates and pinup models
posing and primping and looking all sleepy eyed and silly. That was kind of fun at first, but those
goofy women didn’t do anything but just lay around. I mean, it was interesting and all, but it
wasn’t my favorite.
My
dad's adventure magazines were far more interesting. You know the type, usually showing helpless
girl victims in various stages of undress trapped in the clutches of vile
villains. Sometimes it was Nazis, other
times Arab slave traders or African tribesmen.
Occasionally a brave male hero would be seen coming to the rescue, but
usually not. The headlines said things
like “Sex Prisoners of War” and “I Escaped from a Sheik’s Harem!” I never
read the stories; it was the artwork that really caught my
imagination. I’d lock the bathroom door
and sit on the toilet and stare at those things for hours. I probably would have stayed there forever if
my mother let me.
The
odd thing about those magazines was, well, being the hero wasn’t for me. I didn’t look or feel anything like the
masculine, cigar-chomping, machinegun-toting rescuer. For some strange reason I identified with the
naked and nearly naked women in those pictures; the desperate expressions on their
faces and the hopelessness of their situations captured my imagination. I was absolutely fascinated with the idea of
being the helpless victim and I easily imagined myself swept away and left
naked at the mercy of some dark, overwhelming power.
Okay,
yes, I admit it. I was a prepubescent
masochist.
I’m
certain that the root of my masochism was in the shame I felt regarding my
body. While my so-called friends were
getting leaner and meaner as we grew older, I was just as plump and clumsy as
ever. Dressed for school, I looked
pretty average I guess, but I knew that under my clothes I still had that
chubby, girlish figure, complete with budding breasts and baby fat in all the wrong
places. Even worse, my penis didn’t seem
to be getting any larger, not at all like the boys at school, and the soft pale
skin between my legs was devoid of any hair at all. Looking at my reflection even I had to admit
I looked more like a girl in my birthday suit than a boy. I was terrified of getting teased because of
my baby-like body and these fears fueled my silly sadomasochistic fantasies.
It
was really strange, how I came to identify with the female victims in those
magazines, clinging to their naked breasts and hiding their privates with their
hands. I could easily see myself in
similar circumstances, stripped naked and held captive; I often stood in front
of the mirror naked – with the door locked, of course – cupping my swollen
nipples in one hand and my penis in the other in an attempt to replicate the
images in my dad’s magazines.
It
wasn’t enough that I simply pretend to be kidnapped and stripped. For some reason I became fascinated with the
images of those poor girls getting punished by their oppressive captors; and
so, in true masochistic manner, I tried to imagine what if I were the one
receiving such horrible punishment. All
I had to do was remember when I was little and being naked and getting chased
with the switch by my aunt and my cousins.
Being a budding masochistic, that memory sparked my imagination; the
idea of being stripped naked and whipped in front of a leering, mocking
audience gave me an amazing thrill.
Of
course, I would have hated if any of those awful things ever really happened to
me, but the idea of being pursued by nefarious forces – women and girls in
particular – haunted my imagination. I
just plain thought about it way too much.
To be so young and picturing myself being put on display in my birthday
suit and being punished with a switch or belt – it was like an elixir that made
me drunk with excitement!
As
I said, my archnemesis in these silly little stories was always some powerful
female in one form or another. It all
started with the image of the big breasted, smirking female Nazi officer or the
mysterious middle eastern queen with a harem of smiling females to do her dirty
work. I often pictured myself as the
lowly servant boy in the midst of a bevy of beautiful women, stripped naked and
forced to wait on them hand and foot.
Nothing overtly sexual ever happened in these scenarios – I was still
too young and naïve to understand how any of that worked – but the prospect of
being a naked slave to a group of gorgeous females left me tingling and
blushing for hours on end.
These
exotic scenarios eventually gave way to more realistic and in many ways even
more intimidating images. In real life
the idea of a stern teacher or librarian taking away my clothes and punishing
me in front of my friends and classmates was my worst nightmare; at the same
time I could not envision anything more thrilling or desirable.
Yep,
I was one messed up kid!
Ironically,
my perverted little fantasies led me to be a model student in school. From my first day in class all my female
teachers had to do was give me a hard stare and a harsh word and I’d be as
pliable as putty. I was both hopeful and
terrified that my secret wish might come true and I’d get my bottom bared and
paddled in front of my classmates. It’s
probably a good thing that never happened or I might have died of
embarrassment!
Still,
I daydreamed about it all the time. My
sixth grade teacher, Mrs. Campbell, was a major player in my fantasies. A tall, buxom brunette with high arching
eyebrows and crimson painted lips, she could have been one of the strict
mistresses in my precious adventure magazines.
I don’t know about the other boys, but I thought she was quite
beautiful.
Mrs.
Campbell was also a very good teacher and a lot of fun, with a quick wit and an
extremely droll sense of humor. Most
important, she had this sarcastic way of talking which, if you add how she
would raise her eyebrow when she looked at you, would put shivers down my
spine. It was as if she knew exactly
what I was thinking.
"Daydreaming
again, Mr. Cartwright?" she would say in a teasing voice, prompting a wave
of giggles and laughter throughout the classroom. "Where were you this time, fighting
super villains ... or maybe thinking about a pretty girl?"
I
dreaded being called out like that in front of everyone. But as much as I hated it, being the focus of
Mrs. Campbell’s attention also thrilled me; just her looking at me with that
skeptical, raised eyebrow and mocking smile would make me melt with masochistic
fear. My heart would race and my hands
would tremble and I'd ride a wave of excitement for the rest of the day. As you might imagine I spent a lot of time
cleaning the chalk board and running errands in an effort to get on her good
side.
“This
is the third time in two weeks you’ve stayed to help me, Mr. Cartwright,” I
remember her saying to me one day after school.
She’d asked for volunteers to clean up after some stupid class activity,
I can’t remember exactly why. All I knew
was I’d raised my hand before anybody else had a chance.
“I
can’t tell if you’re being a good student,” she said in a lilting, musical
voice, “Or perhaps you just like being
around me. Would you care to enlighten
me?”
Like
I said, my teacher was a buxom woman and I found it difficult to avoid admiring
her curves. This was one of those
times. She happened to be wearing a
tight, low cut sweater that accentuated her more than ample bosom. She bent over just enough to give me a
perfect view of her cleavage and smiled a haughty, knowing smile.
“You
have something you want to say, sweetie?
Or are you just going to stand there and enjoy the view?”
“Oh gosh, I’m sorry,” I stammered, suddenly
shocked out of my reverie. I was
horrified that I’d been caught looking at my teacher’s amazing breasts. I had no idea what I was supposed to say. “I mean, I …um … yes ma’am … I guess I
do. Like you … I mean, I like helping
you, ma’am.”
“You’re
so adorable,” Mrs. Campbell replied, her smile growing into a wolfish
grin. She leaned in close enough to give
me an amazingly intimate view of her bosom – I could see bits of her brassiere
and smell the scent of baby powder, she was so close – she lowered her voice as
if she was revealing something very private.
“Don’t
worry, sweetie. I won’t tell
anyone. We don’t want them thinking
you’re the teacher’s pet. We’ll let that
be our little secret. Okay?”
I
literally “gulped,” just like in the cartoons.
I mean, wow! Teacher’s pet? I was ecstatic! Back then there was nothing a boy hated more
than being called the “teacher’s pet.”
But not for me! To be Mrs.
Campbell’s secret pet was a dream come true as far as I was concerned. I mean, seriously, there could be nothing
better!
My
imagination worked overtime for weeks afterward that conversation; I'm sure you
can imagine the silly little fantasies that ran through my perverted little
brain. Let’s just say they involved me
in my birthday suit, doing chores and running errands for my favorite teacher,
waiting on her every beck and call.
Cleaning the classroom, taking out the trash, washing down the chalk
board, all of those things most of my friends would have thought tedious and
boring were fuel for my masochistic fantasies.
The idea of simply standing in the corner in my bare skin while she
graded papers and talked with the other teachers was enough to put me into a
restless frenzy of delight!
See? I told you I was a strange kid.
***
Before
I go any further I have to tell you about one final “literary” influence in my
prepubescent fantasy life. That would be
my dad’s nudist magazines. They were
really interesting as they showed regular people, young and old alike, doing
everyday things like playing ball and tennis, hiking, swimming, bicycling and
just sitting around the dinner table; the only thing was, they were all
completely and totally naked, no apologies about it! Everyone in those pages, from moms and dads
and grandparents to brothers and sisters and everyone around them were all just
hanging around and doing stuff in their birthday suits. There wasn’t any sex or anything; just everyday
people doing everyday things. In the
nude.
And
I loved it!
There
was a boy in one of the magazines who looked a lot like I did, or so I
thought. He had long blond curly hair
cut like mine and he was a bit plump like me, with fat nipples and a big bottom
and pudgy legs, just like me. He even
had a little penis with no hair around it at all, just smooth skin and a puny
little limp thing hanging there for everyone in the world to look at. But none of that seemed to keep him from
having fun. Nobody seemed to care that
he was chubby or had a little wiener.
“I
bet nobody calls him a girly boy,” I often said to myself.
Oh,
how I envied the boy in that magazine! I
know, it’s all too silly, but I really coveted the life I imagined him to
have. I was so jealous, in fact, that I
pretended that was me in those photos, like that was part of my history and who
I was. I made up little stories in my
mind about what was happening in those pictures and what all we were doing,
like it all really happened to me.
One
of my favorite daydreams was inspired by a photo essay showing my alter ego
wandering through the woods or picking flowers in nothing more than his
birthday suit. In my fantasy a bunch of
girls from school catch me and they’d all giggle and point and tease me. Of course, I’d act all shy and embarrassed
and cry … just a little. Then those
bullying girls would gather around me and comfort me and shower me with all
sorts of hugs and kisses until I was happy again.
Yeah,
I know. How boring … and stupid! What boy actually liked the idea of running
around naked picking flowers? Not to
mention being picked on by some stupid girls.
Well, me, for one. I couldn’t
explain it then and I still can’t explain it now. All I knew was that this little fantasy
really sparked something inside me. The
very idea of being in the woods and surrounded by nature, on some whimsical
naked adventure with a girl – or better yet, several girls – was just … wow …
so wonderfully exciting and scary!
There
was a girl from my Sunday school class that I sometimes included in my weird
little daydreams. Jennifer Wilson was
adorably cute, with huge eyes, kissable lips and the sweetest smile. For an eleven year old she was pretty
hot. Or so I thought.
Anyway,
I had a serious crush on Jennifer, but I was too shy to say much to her. Whenever I tried to approach her she would
giggle and whisper like she knew something I didn’t know. I would have given anything to be her
boyfriend, but the way things were going I was little than that odd boy in
class who was too afraid to even say ‘hi.’
Not
surprisingly, I started having these odd little fantasies with Jennifer seeing
me naked. At first I tried pretending we
were both naked, which was all right, but for some reason I found it more
interesting if I was the only one without any clothes. The idea of standing in front of Jennifer and
her friends in just my birthday suit was both amazing and frightening! I could easily picture Jennifer giggling and
whispering to her friends and all of them pointing at me in my bare skin,
making fun and teasing me until I was blushing all over and trembling with
excitement.
The
idea of being naked around Jennifer was so weird and so exciting to me, I would
get all red-faced and tingly all over just thinking about it all. That made for some really restless nights in
bed. On one occasion I lost control of
myself and spewed all over my pajamas and sheets. I thought I’d peed the bed, but my mother
said I’d had a wet dream, whatever that was. Mom wasn’t happy about that and I was really
embarrassed. I felt so ashamed as I
helped her change and wash the sheets, but at the same time I was secretly
enthralled! I found myself even more
obsessed with my little perverse ideas, if such a thing were possible.
“Gosh,
if only dreams came true,” I remember saying to myself on more than one
occasion.
Little
did I know I would eventually live to regret my words.
***
As
time went on I grew desperate to make my fantasies come to life. I was still way too shy to let anybody really
see me, so my experimentation began with mundane things like bath time and
going to the toilet. I savored every
moment I prepared for my bath, the time I was naked in the tub and every second
I stood in front of the full length mirror drying myself. I even turned sitting on the toilet into a
mini-adventure by taking off all of my clothes and hanging them on the bathroom
door every time I had to go, rendering me completely naked for those few
precious minutes in the middle of each day.
I
got so carried away with my little games, my mom was prompted to fuss at me for
being a slow poke in the bathroom. She
began insisting that I leave the door unlocked when I was in the bathroom –
“You might fall in the tub and hit your head!” – and she often barged in
unexpected and at the most awkward times.
“Mom! I’m trying to poop here!” I’d fuss while
trying to cover my modesty while seated on the toilet.
“Sorry,
sweetie,” she’d say with a giggle. “You
were taking so long I thought you might have fallen in. Hmmm … how come you took off all your clothes
just to poop …?”
“MOM!!!”
Like
I said, it was all very awkward.
One
Saturday – I was still in sixth grade at the time – my parents went out of town
for a conference. They wouldn’t be back
until after midnight, which was very exciting to me; as soon as I heard their
plans I knew I was going to take full advantage of the situation.
“We’re
trusting you not to do anything you shouldn’t,” my mom warned. “You’ll be a good boy while we’re out, won’t
you?”
“He’ll
be fine, honey,” my dad said impatiently.
“It’s not like we’re going to be gone all night.”
The
clock started ticking the moment my parents left the house. I waited at least an hour, just in case they came
back because my dad forgot his wallet or whatever. Then, after doing a careful reconnaissance to
make sure all the drapes were pulled closed and the doors were locked, I did
it.
I
actually got naked.
In
order to heighten the sense of excitement, I decided to undress upstairs and
leave my clothes in my room. On the test
run I would walk through every room in the house. Then, if my parents or the FBI or the CIA
didn’t come busting through the door, I would spend the whole afternoon and
evening in my birthday suit.
The
test run went without incident, of course.
After all, the house was locked up like Fort Knox and my parents were
gone. Shaking with anticipation, I
carefully undressed and folded up my clothes, putting them away as though I was
going to bed. I stared at myself in the
mirror, feeling extremely vulnerable … and incredibly excited!
“Okay,”
I said with a sigh. “Let’s do this.”
I
tiptoed downstairs, my breath heavy and my bare skin cool with sweat. I was thrilled because for the first time in
my life I was totally naked in my parents’ living room! The same exact room where they entertained
their adult friends and where my mom had her church group over for tea and
cookies. Girls – some that I knew from
school and some from Sunday school! – had been in that room … and here I was,
right in the middle of it with my bare bottom and my privates exposed!
After
standing around for a few minutes I got an idea. I ran down to the basement and picked out a
handful of my favorite adventure magazines.
Then, giggling like an idiot, I tiptoed back downstairs and sat my bare
butt on my mother’s fancy couch and spread my collection of sex and violence on
her coffee table. I spent the next
little while perusing the campy artwork and pulp fiction while in my birthday
suit, a big grin on my face and my hands trembling with delight. Nothing could be finer. I was living my dream!
After
a while I decided to do something really exciting, so I explored every square
inch of the house while still in my bare skin.
I snooped around in my parents’ bedroom, I hung out in the guest room
and I even snuck into the garage and climbed up in the attic! All while naked! I wanted to go out to the back yard, but I
was too scared to do that just yet.
My
favorite places were the attic and the guest room. The attic was dark and eerie, just like in a
scene from a horror film or a scary fairy tale.
I never really noticed it being that bad when I had clothes on, but the
lighting was bad and there was a lot of dust and creepy crawlies scurrying
around. It didn’t take much imagination
to get my adrenaline going – the mere idea of a spider touching my naked body
put me into a panic! – so I didn’t spend much time there. Still, it was exciting!
The
guest room was a whole other story. My
mother had it decorated all frilly frou frou for whenever Aunt Margaret and my
cousins visited, so it was a great place to pretend I got caught by some of the
girls I knew from school. Jennifer
Wilson was the imaginary leader of my pretend captors, of course, and I came up
with the idea that she and her friends had confronted me and were bullying
me. I imagined them touching me all
over, spanking me and pinching me and poking and pulling on every part of my
naked body; I even laid down on the floor and pretended they were all standing
over me, teasing me and laughing at me.
Yeah,
I know. Pretty boring, huh? Well, for an eleven year old kid with an
overactive imagination, especially one as shy and anxious as I was at that
time, this was a huge thing. To me this
little game was no different than playing “cops and robbers” or “cowboys and
Indians.” Only instead of shooting
people or displacing an entire race from their homeland, I was running around
the house naked, giggling like an idiot.
You
have to remember, too, that except for the occasional wet dream, I was totally
ignorant of sex and all the other things that the older kids and adults
associated with nudity. I just wanted to
taste the mysterious excitement of being naked and teased. And that Saturday I did exactly that. It was the most wonderful, exhilarating day
of my entire young life! I wished and I
wished – you don’t know how hard I wished! – for some magical way to make it
all happen.
I
lived on the high from that experience for months. Oh, sure, I wanted to do it again, but with
my mom staying at home and barging in on me all the time, it just wasn’t
possible. I tried going around my room
naked a few times, but she was always coming in or calling me downstairs or
otherwise interrupting my little game.
“There’s
gotta be a way,” I remember saying to myself one day. “I’d give anything to be naked in front of a
woman or even a girl. I’ll do anything
….”
Well,
as the old saying goes, you really should be careful what you ask for ….
To
be continued ….
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